(A "family" of cedar trees which caught my eye on one of my daily walks ... and stirred memories)We are rooted in the places of our beginning.
Oh, we may develop tendrils as we reach for new ideas, seek new adventures, pursue careers. We may even become "tumbleweeds," traveling the countryside ... perhaps visiting ... and even settling ... abroad.
But our roots remain in those places where we began, and this is apparent to us when we sit quietly, thinking ,,. really just thinking.
One example, in my case, involves Christmas trees. Ours was always a cedar tree, because they grew so abundantly on the hills overlooking our home. It was a special treat to go trudging out with Grandpa ... a few days before Christmas ... to pick just the right tree ... not too tall ... not too skinny ... for our living room.
There was just something about the smell of cedar filling the whole house.
When I saw another kind of Christmas tree ... on my first visit to Chicago, which seemed so distant, like another planet ... I couldn't believe THAT was their Christmas tree.
It didn't look like OUR tree at all. Its branches seemed almost bare, compared to what I had been accustomed to. It didn't have that cedar smell. And it certainly didn't have the bird's nest which I had come to expect to find somewhere in our tree.
Oh, I've finally come around to accepting other kinds of Christmas trees ... even the artificial models ... but I still find myself thinking about those other trees from my early years.
The poem:
THE ONLY TREE
I grew up believing
that a cedar was
the only true tree
for Christmas,
plain, struggling
stubbornly
on hillside clay,
having so much
in common
with folks like us.
© 1996
(originally published in Capper's)
Today's word: cedar
Afterthoughts ... in response to your comments:
Thank you, Helen, for those additional thoughts in regard to the cedar tree's role in your Christmases, especially that particular homecoming. When one of my poems strikes such a responsive chord, I know I've done something right ... and that's a good feeling, too. Best wishes.
1 comment:
Your poem takes me to a lovely place with lovely smells. I too, thought a cedar was the only REAL Christmas tree. When I was gone from home the first year and was back for Christmas, my Daddy had bought a spruce, or some sort of tree I didn't expect. I quietly cried. I've always wanted to have a poker face, but not to be! The folks could feel my reaction, although my words said, "It's pretty". After visiting friends, I came back and, there,in the place of the "Charlie Brown tree" was a lovely big cedar, the ONLY real Christmas tree. I felt at home. I've learned to survive without a Cedar Christmas tree as I have learned to with the many things we have to accept. Your poem made me feel sad, in ways, but homey and lovely, in other ways. The lovely comfortable feeling wih the memories it brought out...well, I'll take those with me inside. Reading this poem makes me know I'm not alone.
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